Purpose of Blogging

In the year 2007, I registered myself at Blogspot, which is now known as Blogger to blog down some detail parts of my life... Now today, in the yer 2012, the number of entries I've made has becoming less frequent...

As I looked at those wordings on my heading; Carpe Diem, C'est La Vie, Seizing the day & this is my leading life!!! I wonder how much I had seized the day previously... The purpose of having this blog has become less apparent and seriously I do not know why am I doing this... Do I still have that small amount of loyal fans or friends who will consistently read my blog?? I mean seriously, if you are one, feel free to comment and let me know you do exists... For the very least, I reckon there are people out there who will read my entries...

Some might find me a pathetic pig, some would think it's perfectly fine to blog even it's not something what people want to read... In general, I wonder how much people who came across my blog are really interested in the life I'm leading... This puts me in deep pondering at times what I really want out from blogging here.... To get readers, to obtain some sort of fame via blogging, to share my life experiences or I'm just being personal here (me, myself and Katie only)?? Seriously, I do not know... But one thing I do know is from the very first entry to this, I've seen the growing up me in terms of my personal emotional grow, maturity and the style of life I've been leading... At times, I blogged at the moment that I felt very positive and optimistic that when I read them again, I just kinda lose it - the feel and enthusiasm I used to have... The courage; being daring to pursue what I want especially the way I want to lead my life is that strong... I do feel weak the moment I brought myself back to reality and the presence... I realised I had indeed lost too much of myself, the positive self in particular... Has life reached a stage that I don't feel like improving?? Is this something that changes in life have become so great and advance that sometimes starting afresh seems so difficult at times??

I've reached a stage that my world is not just being myself... I'm married and the burden of taking up responsibilities are not just for myself anymore... Things do become complicated at times, sometimes it is no longer making a decision that you can just walk away like as if it will be a solution... As I grow up (still continue growing) and learning each life lesson God has given me, there is always a tendency not daring to dream... I used to have so much aspirations and dreams of my own that I'd like to achieve but the today's me is no longer as such... Because of my status, having a family seems like a stumbling block to almost everything I want to do... I've to think about my hubby's feelings and the impact once I want to pursue something I want... It becomes very natural on my realistic part to just forget all these and stay where am I now... But deep inside I don't feel that great and keep searching for the lost soul that's fill with fire and strive... I kept dreaming and hope I can turn back time and made the right decision which will push me further and perhaps I'm already where I want myself to be... The idealistic me still exists and I do dare to dream to keep my soul alive... But for the fire I used to have seems to be a memory to me that I'll forever miss...

For the very least I'm blessed for the ability to be able to dream... For the unfortunate, they might not have the rights to dream... So by looking at the other side of the pasture, life is not that bad after all.. To be able to dream does keeps your soul alive...

Aglio e Olio

Breaking away from pre-made spaghetti sauces, I decided to go stir fried - Aglio Olio!!! This was inspired by my youngest sister whom wanted to try out a recipe she found out at Noobcook.com... Indeed she did the cooking and for the very first time (though she kinda screwed up a little), it tasted quite okay... heehee...

To be exact, it's actually my second time cooking this just because my hubby absolutely loves this after he had my first Aglio Olio... He feels this pasta dish is 100X much better than those tomato based... True authentic Aglio Olio should be just Garlic and Oil, but to satisfy my hubby's tummy, for this dinner I used scallops and bacons... It might seems like an ingredient crash, apparently it does taste good and compliment quite well... To give a little texture, I like to add onions...

Preparing the ingredients...

Cooking the pasta...

Till Al dente...

Stir fried onions, bacons and scallops...

To have more peppery taste, I added this...

The final dish, with parmesan cheese...

At my hubby's disadvantage, a tint of parsley will complete the dish... Just too bad that he's not a fan of it, otherwise it will be just perfect...

Unveil the Surprise by Reebonz

I've been reading quite a number of bad reviews about Reebonz and it had made myself a little worried that I might get a used bag or bag that was imperfect...

With great anticipation, finally I received my Veranda Kate Spade bag from Reebonz on Thursday... Seriously it's like unveiling a surprise and I do like the adrenaline feel of opening up a gift... To my surprise, the bag I got is a brand new bag and it comes with a dust bag just like what I'd have bought one at a boutique... Back to USA, dust bag usually are not provided in outlets... I do own a Kate Spade bag myself and I could tell this bag I got is definitely authentic...

So glad to own this bag and I truly like the prints and greens even my hubby said it looks Malay (green is their colour apparently)... Seriously disagree!!! It's very refreshing and I do like it for this summer season... Can't resist the look of the bag that I took some pictures on the process in unveiling the surprise...

The Gift...

The packaging...

The Tag!!!

The bag I got it as a Gift...

Simply can't resist it to carry the bag... That's what keep women happy in owning bags that they love... This is something sometimes men don't quite understand; it's equivalent in them getting so obsessed in playing their new gadget...

Burying beneath the Bag... 

Carrying the bag!!!

Embracing the bag!!!

Shopping at Reebonz.com is solely via invitation, therefore if you want to get bags at a good discount rate, click HERE to be a member and start shopping!!!

Pre-Wedding Pictures

Today marks the 14th day after our Wedding; 2 weeks we got wed... Still mesmerizing on our special day... Although our actual day photos are not out yet, I'm still flipping over our pre-wedding pictures over and over again... I do missed all the fun we had on that day with our photographer, Monica Eng from Vividshots... It's just so natural for us and I really love her style in photography... We indeed had so much fun together, taking pictures have never been so great before...

Over here I'd like to share a few of our pre-wedding pictures that I like the most... Also, I'd also like to thank Euzart Wong from Jawn Happy Ever After for these beautiful Cheongsam & Gowns, Eric from Personality Menshop for the handsome suit and shirts, Ophelia Tan from Pretty Box for the gorgeous hair-dos and make-up, Nic from Flores Inc. for the beautiful hand bouquet... Without these wonderful and fun-loving people, these pictures will not turn out to be that great... Big Cheers to them!!!

Our full Wedding Album can be viewed in my Facebook profile HERE!!!

Taken along Balestier Road...

Taken within a coffee shop along Balestier Road...

Taken at Grand Shanghai...

Taken at Hort Park...

A Remembrance; My Wedding

Finally, I got my Wedding on the 10th December 2011; one of the sweetest moment I ever had with my hubby Lionel in my entire life. I thank God for this, to be with me till the day I wed on this special day... It has been tough on us to be together and gone through the Wedding together, marking a significant day of our lives...

It has past 9 days, I'm still mesmerizing on that day as though my Wedding is still alive... I greatly missed the day... Finally, it was a grand finale for Lionel and I after we have been through so much to get together... This marked the beginning of our marriage life together as husband and wife... In remembrance, I want to keep this day in mind deeply as a reminder to myself that it was never easy to be together as a couple... For all the turmoils we have been through that have lead us this far was indeed God's grace on us...

I'm thankful for our videographer, Christopher Tay from Ichiro Films who has captured the moment for us and create a story for us that touches our hearts... This video was captured in Mandarin, a language that I had used to express my emotions and feelings to Lionel in days when we were at our toughest...

Translation in English:

Title: You . I . Happiness

"We are not Perfect..."
"It's fate that had brought 2 persons of different thinking together..."

"Do you recall you had once told me that we can't have misunderstandings?"
"Therefore, I'd like to let you know I've never thought of leaving you..."
"After we've been through so much, I hope we can build a beautiful tomorrow for our future..."

"Fight for your own happiness, agree?"


你 . 我 . 幸福 from Christopher Tay on Vimeo.

A Release...

Finally, I braced up and made the very first step to move on for a better start... For a better well being and to lead a better future, I truly realize the gist of being truthful to myself and take on self-responsibilities...

For nearly 10 years, even when I was a teen, I tend to have this ideal perception that life will be much better as I grow up... To my real horror, it's the facts of life; my life situation(s) didn't actually improve... All things literally have gone way out of my hands... I thought I'm smart enough to manage all aspects of my life - my career, finances, relationship, family, etc. etc. etc... It finally occur to me that I've been losing myself so much that when I realize what I should be doing it in the right way; I feel so brand new... Still in a daze, trying to re-know the new me...

I couldn't believe it... It's like finally seeing myself how wrong can I be in the past... Through God's grace, I finally get to understand why the horrifying acts of human can be so wrong... Instead of viewing them negatively and starting to be judgmental, I've re-looked human behavior in a different manner... I started to know why and the reason behind... All things suddenly appear to be very simple and straightforward... It's like God has displayed everything out clearly for me without any gray area... Right now, I'm able to give thanks within my heart with true gratitude...

I still have the old me in me... Old habits die hard... I've to learn the art of patience and endurance in order to overcome the bad self of mine... I've the confidence I'll strive hard and look forward in great positiveness without looking back..